Saturday, November 26, 2011
You Don't Own Me
I don't normally feel this kind of stress. I have come to terms with the fact that I do have to work because right now Hubby doesn't make nearly enough as a resident for us to cover all of our bills. It doesn't bother me at all that I have to work because I do actually like working and I enjoy never having to fight about money. Mostly, I enjoy it because I had everything worked out and it was going well. The nanny was happy with her schedule, the kids were in a routine, and I was making everything work. Now I'm going to have a new boss, I'm going to be gone more, and I'll probably make less money. How is it that I can be working hard, selling plenty of equipment, and suddenly BAM!! Everything has to change and I don't get a choice.
All that being said, I am currently enjoying a four day weekend from work. We spent the morning decorating the house for Christmas and at one point during the decorating, I looked around my house. I was suddenly filled with the feeling of pure happiness. The house looked so warm with all the lights and stockings, the kids were dancing to Christmas Carols, and I suddenly thought, "You don't own me! You don't control my happiness!! I control my happiness!"
I admit this probably sounds a tad melodramatic, but once that hit me, I felt free. Now the kids are napping and I'm enjoying the quiet house while I drink some hot tea. I know I'll be able to get through whatever comes because I do have choices in life and I choose to be happy with what I have. See? How could this NOT make me happy??